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Woke up today, feling bit better, went out for coffee with pals, very tired, took a lot out if me. Its a bit of a stress day money wise as well, just not making it on my money, by time bills paid and still paying college stuff,I'm so broke its wearing me down.
Kids bugging me as they expect me to work miracles and then the X bought one of them a laptop today, He wont give me maintance and he buys them these things. Just so upsetting.
Sitting here having a slice of bread and Jam, just want to curl and sleep till my next payment. Very down as I also met a girl in town, no qualitications and she got a C.E Scheme one of the ones I had applied for, & she's so common in speach. Just a day when everything can go wrong went wrong. Feel so under valued. Going out today I went to a coffee shop that I had a coupon for a free coffee and then in McDonalds with another free coffee vouchers, pals know that I am dieting so made no comment about me not buying food.
Trying to keep telling mysel kids are healthy, safe and I've no real worries but some days that not enough.
I'll be ok tomorrow. just needed to moan, get it all out.
NEW DAY TOMORROW< A POSITIVE ATTITUDE< A BIT OF MIRROR TALK< SAYING " I MUST IMUST AND I WILL I WILL.
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