Finally had a good weekend -- living my big new life & eating mindfully (most of the time) with no sugar cravings! After 3 tough weekends, it feels so good to wake up without that sugar hangover feeling! While I still didn't sleep well at all last night, I'm glad it was because of the upcoming Thanksgiving holiday (writing that list in my mind of what needs to be done, bought, prepared, etc.) instead of because of what I ate over the weekend. As we learned at the retreat, those of us who overeat or binge have wired our brains that way as we repeated those actions. The visual used was that of a heavy vehicle driving though soft mud & make deeply engrained tracks. This weekend, I made a small detour out of that rut & toward healthy, mindful eating and living!
And just in time as the added stress of Thanksgiving begins! We went from having 10 to 12 to 18 for dinner… me, who hates to cook! For various reasons, I'm only able to delegate to MIL who is bringing dessert. But, that didn't stop me from taking care of me, and delegating to Whole Foods instead :). I'll roast the turkey, make a sweet potato casserole (my youngest's fav) & a mashed potato casserole (I'll make both on Weds & cook them on Turkey day) & a salad, and leave the rest to the pros at WF. So, I should have a stress free (as much as possible when entertaining!) & more easy to enjoy holiday!
I'm off to spin soon & will begin the grocery shopping after, then I'm on to see the selected therapist this afternoon. I'm feeling really good about choosing her & continuing that process. She had suggested that I was still restricting my eating too much during the week which was setting me up to overeat on the weekends. I'm not sure if it was only that, or that combined with an improving relationship with DH, that made the difference, but I'm basking in the joy of this feel good mood!
I'm hoping to get to another chapter of the EWYL-BE program today or sometime this week, but with the holiday will have to squeeze it in when I can & will recap then. For now , I'll begin my day in prayer (a renewed connect there has also been helping too plus the addition of yoga & reading for pleasure as I build my new, big life) --
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
And, for this one day, and each one meal, moment, bite & emotion, I'll pray, breathe, log, journal & express my way. I'm so grateful for each of awesome you, my family & IRL friends, having my youngest home & our family together for the week and holiday, and the good health & enough wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
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