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Its Sunday.
Yesterday, I decided enough was enough. I was f***king hungry. I wanted some REAL food. I wanted something that I would enjoy!
I had the frozen yogurt.
During the first two bites, I was thinking to myself, "Oh god, this is so good... but I know myself, and when this is gone, I am going to go in search for more. Better, fattier, sweeter, "more-forbidden" foods! Shit, shit shit!"
I took Dawn's advice (as well as many of my other buddys' advice) and just savored every little bite. I paused and asked myself what was so great about it.
The coconut was divine. The banana- perfectly ripe, but not mushy. The pineapple was tangy but sweet. The yogurt was cold and creamy.
I finished, and surprisingly I was satisfied. It took a lot of positive self talk to convince myself that I wasnt "bad" or that I should not feel guilty.
I am done feeling guilty. I am done beating myself up. That is what causes me to binge. From now on, I am not allowing myself to feel guilty. I'm just going to say "forget it," and move on. Thats what I used to do.
I took note that before I started recording my food on FS, before I started counting calories, I felt no guilt whatsoever for anything that I ate. Before, I was always shameless and resilient. I never craved sweets because I was satisfied with the healthy foods I was eating.
I know what I need to do. Its just a matter of re-learning how to do it now. I did it in the past, and thats how I lost so much weight in 2007 and 2008.
I did over eat last night, but it was very mindless eating while I was watching House. lol I stopped when I realized I was feeling sick. I need to pay more attention to the reasons why I am eating, and what my body is telling me. I especially need to practice intuitive eating.
Okay, I sound like a broken record. Uggghhh. Why cant I just do this? I guess its harder than it seems.
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391 kcal
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Grasa: 13,73g | Prot: 23,21g | Carbh: 48,20g.
Desayuno: almond butter, max protein, kashi hot cereal. Pasa Bocas / Otros: crackers. más...
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It is really hard sometimes. But you are doing so great! You are starting to recognize what's going on with you and your eating patterns which is great. I'm a big emotional eater and when I'm stressed I head to the fridge... or the bread drawer but once I realized this I started trying to put extra effort in stopping myself from turning to food and actually trying to deal w/ my problems.
Keep up the good work, enjoy your frozen yogurt! It sounds so yummy, I want to go get some now lol.
-Meg
03 may. 09 por el miembro: miss_meg
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Fantastic!!! Reading your journal entry after writing mine gave me pause. I am exactly trying to figure out how to do this without being an obsessed crazed woman!! LOL!!! You too!!! I agree with the guilt comment. It doesn't help at all. SCREW GUILT. We'll figure it out ... I know we will. Let's keep at it, keep writing, keep supporting each other and we'll all figure out the steps we each need to take to stay well, body, mind, soul, and spirit!!!
03 may. 09 por el miembro: madaboutmoose
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I love it, I love your journal... You talked yourself out of binging and eating more sweeter, more fattening stuff. OMG, great job.
04 may. 09 por el miembro: rdrd1003
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