Diario de maelynpeacock, 24 nov. 15

So, umm, I'm back, kind of. I have spent the last couple of months of gaining weight as I stopped the restricting and purging. A lot of weight. 45 pounds. Exactly what I was afraid would happen if I did not severely restrict once I was put on the Clozaril. I no longer own any scales, because they're too triggering. I get weighed only when I go to see my doctor. I'm starting a new exercise program, hopefully with a couple of friends. I'm looking at what I can do with eating with my finances. We'll have to see. It's going to be an interesting few months. I don't know how often I'm going to be checking in. I'm alive, and the starvation/purging aspect of the ED has passed. Rebound weight + medication weight = yuck.