Diario de D1srupta, 11 mar. 16

Life has been frustrating for me as of late, and I have tried to do my best to make the most of it, but it has started to get out of hand.

There are a lot of things that are making me frustrated, but in all reality the true reason is my low self-esteem and the need to be validated in some way. Combined with my current isolation, I moved out to this state with my friend who died soon after we moved, it is difficult to process these issues nor is it possible to find moral support.

With no friends or family to turn to, it leaves me in a lonely, insecure, and isolated place.

I keep trying knowing that I'll never have what I want if I simply lay over and concede defeat. I have made significant progress overall, but it seems so small when I look at where other people are in their lives. Co-workers that are physically fit and attractive with friends and families and social lives... while I am sitting here at a computer typing my woes. I threw away what would had been the best years of my life because I was shy and socially unaccepted. Life is cruel.

Logically I understand that I am not owed anything. I was dealt a hand and it is with that hand I must play. I keep drawing new cards in an attempt to replace some of my hand to at least build something to work with, but it'll never match some hands that others are dealt. Emotionally and spiritually, I cannot help but to believe that there is more to life than my pitiful existence, and that I just have to keep looking to eventually find it.

I will keep trying. It is all I can do.

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