Diario de bizzybee38, 18 abr. 18

Today my coworker said, "you made it! You look like you reached your goal." Another coworker who was in the room stated that she thought I had reached my goal as well. I quickly thanked them and proceeded to tell them that I hadn't met my goal yet. I looked at myself in the mirror last night in my bathing suit before going to swimming and I remarked to myself that the suit I was wearing has never looked better on me.

No, I don't weigh 150 lbs, but I have lost a ton of fat, I am more fit and I look better in my clothing. Is the number really that important? Am I hung up on this one thing whereas; everything else is better? My health, my endurance, my appearance. Am I psyching myself out by thinking that I can never achieve the number so why bother? Am I truly not going to be happy unless I have that unattainable (perhaps) goal? I need to spend some time thinking about where do I go from here. God forbid I lose or gain weight when I weigh in on Saturday, my head might explode.